…rain after rain after rain. it feels as if the old colonies decided to take revenge and have sent their monsoon as a war emissary to the concrete jungle of paris.
unfortunately they haven’t swept away the garbage piling at street corners, the traffic, the gray on people’s faces. maybe we need to drain the seine in order to make its waters clearer.
perhaps a real flood would be more appropriate, to fill up within the city walls and make a beautiful underwater museum.
i’m sure that would make us finally happy.
in the dark, i can still smell the lily of the valley bouquet that i’d placed on my nightstand.
it seems like the only presence in the room, stronger even than the warmth of the person sleeping by my side. such a delicate and wonderful smell.
on one of my first pictures as a baby, taken in the popular fashion of photographing the kid naked for future adolescent embarrassment, i’m holding a stem of this delicate flower.
throughout the years it still holds a strong fascination, like a magic spell that has been cast over me. each year they bloom for a mere two weeks before turning into red poisonous berries.
yesterday it was the 1st of may, which, besides the communist undertones, consists here of the peculiar custom of offering lilies of the valley as a token of good-luck. sounds like a scene from a musical- one day when everyone would be offering each other the same beautiful flowers, merging into an olfactory orgy.
…i wish i haven’t gotten out of the house yesterday to see the sad spectacle of street vendors and tourists clustering around saint michel. however, it was my only chance of getting these beloved flowers, as there’s no garden that i can just pick them from anymore.
all there is left to do now is to dream the memory of the day away.
lace. legs. girls. lace and frills and pretty underthings. a carousel of cliches frolicking in vintage stardust.
it smells like lilacs in my room. i haven’t left this bed in the clouds for a week now, among feverish dreams, lost in the infinite eiderdown.
…thunderstorms and sunshine.






